Sometimes I lose sight of where we are. For a moment or two I'll forget that things are not certain right now, that the events of days to come could steer this in either of the two possible directions. I am trying, I really am.
I'm trying to give this patience and care and deliberation. I am looking at it in terms of my future much more earnestly than I have before. It is time for that, it must be that way should there be any hope. I can take solace that I am not afraid, even with all the uncertainty, I do not fear it, I only face it.